03:48: #(2002 9 17 3 46)

Yum. My mind is very fertile-seeming, right now.

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09:38: #(2002 9 11 9 10)

I don't think that it's just boredom, now.

I stayed in bed for several hours extra, today (witness the date on this entry), not because I was tired from having gotten 2.5 hours of sleep the previous night, not [just] because I was bored, but, primarily..., I think..., because I didn't want to face the world full of people.

Yesternight did not have a satisfying close to it. I think that I do better in the morning after nights that are both enjoyed and close in a satisfying way.

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03:28: #(2002 9 10 3 25)

It's funny that there are antisocial ways of being social, like playing cards.

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22:29: #(2002 9 6 22 15)

There is a girl in my apartment, conversing with Jason.

I feel discomfort.

I'm not sure why.

I think that it's because she said that I was scary.

I think that I've got a fear of scaring people away and ruining any hope of having them for pleasant social connectedness-stuff.

People thought that I was scary in high-school.

It bothered me, then, too.

I wonder how many I scared away, and how many I could have known.

It's Friday. I'm feeling temporal.

Jittery. I wonder if `temporal' is the same thing as jittery, or, if not..., just how they're related.

I suppose that I can't be jittery without being temporal.

Can I be temporal without being jittery? I don't remember....

I said, to Mike, #{today:}# I don't think that I experience eustress (eustress? why can't I find a spelling for that?), just distress. Stress is just a mental pox.

I gave my guitar to my brother--how could I not? He wanted a creative outlet.

I'm lacking a temporal outlet, now.

Actually, it's not clear whether drawing or painting do or can act as a temporal outlet....

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22:28: #(2002 9 5)

You can blame me for pointing out that you're full of shit, but you can't blame be for your being full of shit.

I wonder how Jay manages to perpetually make claims of enlightenment while maintaining such fierce ignorance.

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