00:29: #(2002 12 21 23 32)

yay!

Relax the Back has some very nice chairs. I think that I'd like a Swopper for my bedroom-studio. I'm not sure what I'd like for my office.... I really hope that I don't have to leave my job....

I mean, I really like it there..., but that draft agreement is just so gross....

Jeff doesn't expect them to budge, based upon his `don't negotiate with terrorists' concept. Well, the thing is..., I don't negotiate with terrorists, either. And `let us fuck you or you're canned' sure-as-hell sounds like a terrorist threat. `whenever someone says, `give me more money or I'm leaving', as a manager, I have to say `fine, leave'', he says. `As soon as you start making threats, you have negative value', he says.

I'm not making threats--they are. I'm not trying to scare anyone--I don't want to scare anyone. I just don't think that it's fair to be expected to bend that far over for a measly $40k/yr.

wtf....

Christmas is such a strange time.... Gift-giving because of the date--strange strange strange.

I remember, a christmas or two ago, buying a present for chris. The thing was..., that I had forgotten that christmas was coming and that I was supposed to be buying christmas-presents for people, and not remembered it until after I bought him a present. "Oh, right--it's christmas! I could give this to him as a christmas present!", I thought to myself. Actually, I said it to myself. I suppose that I actually said it to tiare, too, because she was there with me.

Now, I'm supposed to be giving presents to everyone, and I'm being set-up to feel bad about not giving presents to certain people....

I don't like giving presents to people because I'm supposed to give presents to them--I like giving presents to people because I found something and went `Wow! That's so so-and-so!'.

Some-times, the happenstance of my finding presents for people hap-ily co-incides with some holiday....

Guys, don't feel that I don't love you or something if you don't get christmas-presents from me....

...

I bought some worry-dolls for the upcoming christmas yankee swap at worg--hah... hah... hah. Maybe I shouldn't mention that, yet..., but I suspect that it's highly improbable that anyone relevant will see this before Monday.

logs-analysis

Who the hell to I know in Londonderry? Who do I know who uses Adelphia...?

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23:30: #(2002 12 15 23 25)

These are not notes to anyone else.

These are notes to myself.

As such, it is not necessary that anyone else understands them.

The importance of my understanding them is debatable.

If there is anything from this that anyone should understand, it is perhaps something about the whole of my personality--these entries, taken singly in their solitude, are nonsense.

I don't really know how voyeurism works,

what makes you tick....

Maybe you should tell me.

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Tue, 10 Dec 2002